In ten years I'd like to be in a much more functional place in my life. I've been a dysfunctional adult for far to long. Look at any area of my life that you feel like examining and you'll find a mess, chaos, or at least neglect. I can't blame anyone else for being dysfunctional. I am an adult and my messes are my own. But it will be a struggle to fix them. I have tried many methods to find a more functional life: trial and lots of error, reading enough self help books to have a PhD, letting others take control, denial. My favorite is denial because then there is nothing that I have to fix and I can just lay on my couch watching NCIS.
In ten years I'd like to be at a
healthy weight and, without eaters regret, be able to choose my meals
for flavor and enjoy-ability. I'd like to have a method of fitness
that brings me to life so that each day is easier and more vibrant
because I exercised. I wish to have a plan (and the finances to back
it up) to take three big trips each year: one just for me alone, one
with my kids and grand-kids, and one with the man I love. I crave a
daily ritual that allows me time alone for myself to think and review my
life, and express prayers and gratitude. I strongly desire to have
scheduled time with my lover, my children, and my grandchildren to
create memories so that they always have a piece of me in their heads
and their hearts. I want to be in a relationship with man that can
show me that he cares for me everyday and that allows me to do the
same for him (Love is in the little things...). I'd enjoy reviving,
or building new, family traditions to make each family celebration
special and memorable. I'd love to be living in a home that we own
with a porch swing, fruit trees, a small vegetable garden, and safe
places for the kids and pets to play without creating continual chaos
and mess but still connected to the house and family. I'd prefer to
have enough income to not carry any debt, to be able to pay all the
bills on time, to be able to go to the doctor when necessary, to be
able to go on our yearly trips, to be able to take my sweetheart out
for his birthday or the grand-kids out for ice cream, and to stop
living in fear of eviction, shut-offs, and loss. I envision myself
making money as a successful writer. I pray that my man and I can
fairly equally contribute to all areas of our joint life so that
there aren't any feelings of superiority or inferiority. I'd enjoy
volunteering with groups that help animals and humanity, especially
children. I'd truly like to feel confident when I speak Spanish.
I'd humbly like to be recognized for achievements that I have made in
writing or volunteer service, at least once.
I think that was probably the most
helpful activity that I have ever completed. I now know what I want
to see at the finish line, so now I need to explore, define, and map
out the steps to get there.
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